How to let it go without forgetting and before it has destroyed me, I don't know. it's been a while, it's been two and a half months, the mind has got the idea but the shock is still here. I was at his funeral, I saw, there's no way I could deny.

he has such a hold on me, even after all these years. especially after all these years, and especially now.

you don't know the true capacity of your own heart unless your world is turned upside down.