i know maybe i'll regret it later, but right now as it seems to me i'm completely in love with him. no head over heels, but it just feels so good. i love talking to him on the phone, his voice always sounds so caring, i love his long, sleek fingers, they make me wonder what would it feel like if they touched my skin and i love his sense of humor, his way of living. i just can't stop thinking about days we're going to spend together on that trip, it seems such a temptation already, and the only thing i really want to do is letting me into his arms. while falling asleep, i often imagine myself wrapped in his arms, his long, sleek fingers playing with my hair and his voice somewhere on my neck. i can't take it no more, either we're going to leave this place and live happily together or we're just going to be some kind of friends, meeting each other quite rarely. i just can't stop longing for him, i can't hide it anymore - and speaking honestly, why should i?