growing up isn't supposed to be an easy thing to do, especially in a post-socialistic country like this and especially in a family like mine. as i remember, my childhood was kind of a mixture between all these soviet traditions and stuff, while with every day more and more west-like. i remember growing up with Britney and Backstreet Boys, and at same time we still had all these sovietic things like really old buses, strange politicians (not that i was kind of interested as a kid in politics, though now i realize what that time really was like) and mental heritage. and my family... i guess, it's just not possible to describe them. they're catholics, so i'm supposed to be a catholic as well, and not only be one, but actually act and live like one, too. it's strange, isn't it, how parents, friends or whoever else tries to push us into some things, beliefs, books, films, music etc what they've found really great, so we're supposed to like the same things as well. as a catholic child, i was raised up with thought that sex is bad, television is bad, actually life is so full of bad things that you'd better don't go out at all. of course, i'm overreacting now, i just can't get over it, over these restrictions, but still, still.. life is something more than just bad things. yeah, i understand really well that sex when you're not ready for it can really harm you - because i was so depressed by these restraints i could not try it at least, starting relationship when you both are just too young also can hurt you quite badly, as it happened to me as well. all in all, growing up is not an easy thing, no surprise many just don't get through it.